"He was not conscious of an effort, but a sharp pain in his wrist apprised him that he was trying to free his hands. He gave the struggle his attention, as an idler might observe the feat of a juggler, without interest in the outcome. What splendid effort!--what magnificent, what superhuman strength! Ah, that was a fine endeavor! Bravo! The cord fell away; his arms parted and floated upward, the hands dimly seen on each side in the growing light. He watched them with a new interest as first one and then the other pounced upon the noose at his neck. They tore it away and thrust it fiercely aside, its undulations resembling those of a water snake. "Put it back, put it back!" He thought he shouted these words to his hands, for the undoing of the noose had been succeeded by the direst pang that he had yet experienced. His neck ached horribly; his brain was on fire; his heart, which had been fluttering faintly, gave a great leap, trying to force itself out at his mouth. His whole body was racked and wrenched with an insupportable anguish! But his disobedient hands gave no heed to the command. They beat the water vigorously with quick, downward strokes, forcing him to the surface. He felt his head emerge; his eyes were blinded by the sunlight; his chest expanded convulsively, and with a supreme and crowning agony his lungs engulfed a great draught of air, which instantly he expelled in a shriek!
He was now in full possession of his physical senses. They were, indeed, preternaturally keen and alert. Something in the awful disturbance of his organic system had so exalted and refined them that they made record of things never before perceived. He felt the ripples upon his face and heard their separate sounds as they struck. He looked at the forest on the bank of the stream, saw the individual trees, the leaves and the veining of each leaf--saw the very insects upon them: the locusts, the brilliant-bodied flies, the grey spiders stretching their webs from twig to twig. He noted the prismatic colors in all the dewdrops upon a million blades of grass. The humming of the gnats that danced above the eddies of the stream, the beating of the dragon flies' wings, the strokes of the water-spiders' legs, like oars which had lifted their boat--all these made audible music. A fish slid along beneath his eyes and he heard the rush of its body parting the water."
This portion of the short story talks about the intense suffering that this young man was experiencing while nearing death. In this passage it talks about how he has experiencing so much physical pain that he wasn't even completely conscious. As soon as he was released from the water-and from pain-he immediately gained "full possession of his physical senses."
Many people in today's world are experiencing extreme trauma and pain due to unfortunate circumstances in their lives. Many resort to suicide. Could these trauma victims be experiencing something similar to what this young man was experiencing as he was being hanged? Are they able to clearly and consciously examine the decisions they make in their trauma filled live? Or in contrast, do they gain "full possession of their physical senses" only once they have been freed from they control of their pain?
I'm not sure about the rest of you, but I think this post was as deep as the water the man was drowning in. I believe when people resort to suicide, they are choosing NOT to examine their decisions. By committing suicide, you don't HAVE to examine anything. There are no consequences; at least for you anyway, and I believe that's why many people resort to it. It can look very attractive.
ReplyDeleteYes! The whole purpose of committing suicide is so you don't have to think or deal with the problems your facing.
DeleteCody - are you asking if all people who are near death experience the same feelings as Farquhar - that things can be imagined as taking place for hours but the reality is it is only a split second? And if someone is committing suicide, is this what they experience before death? Maybe you can clarify :)
ReplyDeleteMy post wasn't intended to have any relation to time. Although it may be relatable. I was more thinking about how the criminal was going through so much physical pain causing him to lose consciouness. Having a rope so tightly around your neck to the point of it snapping seems to hint that he has a lot of pressure on his neck. I was trying to relate this to the emotional pain that some who live in trauma filled lives experience. I am wondering if it is possible that they are going through so much pain that they aren't even completely conscious. This could lead them to making decisions such as suicide. (Im not saying that I think that this IS the case. I am simply posing the question.
DeleteObviously the trauma people are completly conscious I guess. Is what im trying to say is that they are possibly completely consumed with their trauma to the point they they have tunnel verision and aren't able to see the whole picture of they results of their decisions.
DeleteI get it now! Interesting! You know - there are Civil War battlefield stories like that. Wounded soldiers who are in so much misery that they want someone to end their life.
DeleteI agree with Emily, this post was really deep. I don't personally think that all people who are close to death become like this man did. I think that his adrenaline is what was giving him the super strength, and great perception, but I wouldn't credit that entirely to his proximity to death, but his fear, and adrenaline.
ReplyDeleteThese are good questions Cody! I think for some this may be the case, but not all. I do think that those who commit suicide are often in a very unhealthy state mentally, so they are not able to clearly and consciously examine the decisions they are making. They normally just want to end it with out needing to think about or examine anything in there life that is causing them suffering!
ReplyDeleteI also think (my second post), that suicide victims are looking for a way to avoid their grief, pain, or other problems. They possibly see death as eternal rest from their current strife. I don't know for sure because I haven't ever had extensive conversation with a suicidal person. I think the view that holds death as an escape from life is only partially true. I personally believe that everyone is going to be dealing with the same problems after we die that we do in life because, we still have to give account at death of all we do in life to the creator of the universe.
ReplyDeleteThat's always the kicker right? You can't avoid God, no matter how hard you try. No one can escape infinity.
ReplyDeleteI agree with Maddie to agree. You don't have to be mentally unstable to commit suicide. You can be very even-keeled and very lucidly commit suicide. Like she said, it's just a way of avoiding your problems.